Am I demisexual or just conservative?

[Andy_28]

I'm sorry if my vocabulary is not the best; English is not my native language.

I'm a 19-year-old girl who has recently started to question whether I'm demisexual or not. I had an experience with a friend (we're not that close). We started talking about being friends with benefits, and we had a spicy conversation that I was initially okay with. But the next morning, I felt sick, and since then, I stopped talking to him.

After that day, I feel different. I'm not even interested in meeting boys or having a relationship (which I had been seeking for some time), and just thinking about any sexual encounter with someone makes me feel nauseous and uneasy.

It's not just that; I've always wanted a serious relationship. I don't like the idea of having a casual connection with someone. I once tried it—the typical night when you meet someone, kiss him, and never see him again (that's common in my friend group)—but I couldn't stop thinking about that guy for months.

I have some intense daddy issues, so if any guy treats me well, even just being kind, I start developing a crush on him; I don’t care about his appearance. I've liked more than 25 people, but it’s rarely mutual.

I didn't want to have my first kiss until I had a boyfriend, and I don't want to lose my virginity to just anyone; it has to be someone I really trust, and he must be my boyfriend (that's a rule I have).

I've never felt sexually attracted to famous people, including my favorite artists; just the thought makes me uncomfortable. I feel the same way about the people I like. So if I have any fantasies, they usually involve someone I’ve never met, and I imagine him without a face.

Nowadays, casual relationships are becoming more common, and a lot of friends have told me that I'm just being conservative because I want a serious relationship and I don’t really like public displays of affection at all.

I've experienced some romantic attraction to people I don’t know well, but I find no sexual attraction to those individuals. It's also important for me to understand all of this because I'm a virgin and had my first and only boyfriend at 13, so I've been single for a long time. I'm not sure how it really feels, and I'm really confused.

Am I demisexual, or am I just shy and conservative?

[salva35]

Many greetings and welcome to the AVEN Spain Forum.
This is a Forum more for general information, it is not very active, since the Covid Pandemic many users have gone to other social networks.
Can I ask if you live in Spain?
It is important to know yourself.
If you have had some experience, you may be within the asexual range, which is very large and varied.
Look at the different Forum topics. I'll leave you a link so you can have a little more information.
-https://es.asexuality.org/wiki/index.ph ... 3%ADntimas.
-https://es.asexuality.org/wiki/index.ph ... sexualidad